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9.28.2011
9.19.2011
Venting
By now you're tired of hearing about my love life. My new "interest" must have dropped the class because I still see her around campus. I'm done.
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-Posted from my mobile device.
9.15.2011
Inside Looking Out
So far, my week has been an eventful roller coaster.
Sam still won't talk to me. While I hesitate to say that I'm over her, I have experienced an extended level of detachment. However, though I no longer care for her in a romantic sense, I'm still worried. How did she get all the way out there that night without a car? That's a good 20-minute drive. I don't want to call the pigs for several reasons, but her roommate is the most difficult person to get a hold of.
In short, I'm at a loss and don't know what to do. I don't know who was out there that night but I keep thinking 'what if he got my plate number?' or something. I don't think that's too far-fetched, even for someone as paranoid as I am. Right?
On the brighter side of things, therapy is working out pretty well. She won't let me record in her office, though. Reuben has had a girlfriend for about a week now, and I suppose I should applaud him for that. I, on the other hand, prefer the slow route. I don't want to make the same mistakes I did with the last few. My new interest is working out pretty well, but I'm still at a certain point where I'm like 'does she or doesn't see'. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals but maybe I'm over-analyzing. I feel stupid around her lately because I've been congested and had this terrible cough- which is just my luck when I meet someone new, right?
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Sam still won't talk to me. While I hesitate to say that I'm over her, I have experienced an extended level of detachment. However, though I no longer care for her in a romantic sense, I'm still worried. How did she get all the way out there that night without a car? That's a good 20-minute drive. I don't want to call the pigs for several reasons, but her roommate is the most difficult person to get a hold of.
In short, I'm at a loss and don't know what to do. I don't know who was out there that night but I keep thinking 'what if he got my plate number?' or something. I don't think that's too far-fetched, even for someone as paranoid as I am. Right?
On the brighter side of things, therapy is working out pretty well. She won't let me record in her office, though. Reuben has had a girlfriend for about a week now, and I suppose I should applaud him for that. I, on the other hand, prefer the slow route. I don't want to make the same mistakes I did with the last few. My new interest is working out pretty well, but I'm still at a certain point where I'm like 'does she or doesn't see'. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals but maybe I'm over-analyzing. I feel stupid around her lately because I've been congested and had this terrible cough- which is just my luck when I meet someone new, right?
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9.12.2011
9.07.2011
Resolution
Yesterday was finally the day that the schedules of Sir Reuben Woodward and I finally allowed for us to be in the same room at the same time. I turned the camera off for sake of privacy, but we more or less talked things out eventually. The middle of the conversation was interesting, though. Somehow the challenge arose to see who could be the first one to get a date. Morally, I find it appalling. However, I'm not really even going to try because let's face it: Reuben's not exactly a 'lady's man'.
Meanwhile, the smoke continues to get thicker. Afternoons here are very gray and I'm convinced that my newfound cough is a result of the smoke from all these damn fires. This probably wasn't the best year to cut fire dept funding, governor.
EDIT (because I didn't want to post a new blog):
I'm not going to say I met someone today, because that would probably jinx it and just turn out bad all around. I am going to say that today I talked to someone really cool and I feel like I may have gotten a hint or two. Even if not, it's all okay because they are pretty effin awesome. Either way, it's still one more step to getting over Sam.
Meanwhile, the smoke continues to get thicker. Afternoons here are very gray and I'm convinced that my newfound cough is a result of the smoke from all these damn fires. This probably wasn't the best year to cut fire dept funding, governor.
EDIT (because I didn't want to post a new blog):
I'm not going to say I met someone today, because that would probably jinx it and just turn out bad all around. I am going to say that today I talked to someone really cool and I feel like I may have gotten a hint or two. Even if not, it's all okay because they are pretty effin awesome. Either way, it's still one more step to getting over Sam.
9.06.2011
Just Gonna Stand There And Watch Me Burn?
Couple of things. First off, remember the friend I had that went missing? His car was found in a small town a couple of hours away from here. His roommate said his car disappeared from the house sometime over the night a few days ago. Needless to say, this has given me hope and I'm feeling ever-so-slightly chipper at the moment. In other news, raging fires are pretty much surrounding me. I hear fire trucks at least every few hours.
--I just checked the active wildfires map for my state and HOLY SHIT. The fires are closer to me, but my town is almost completely black out by the smoke spread. I wouldn't be surprised if this invariably caused the cold front this morning which lowered the temperature a good 40-50 degrees.
--I just checked the active wildfires map for my state and HOLY SHIT. The fires are closer to me, but my town is almost completely black out by the smoke spread. I wouldn't be surprised if this invariably caused the cold front this morning which lowered the temperature a good 40-50 degrees.
9.03.2011
Where Is My Camera When I Need It?
I was going to vlog this one but my camera's downstairs and I'm lazy. Oh well.
So I'm home alone (again) and I needed to take my dog out to pee. I snap on her leash and go outside- pretty routine. Then as I'm leading her out to the grass, I see this guy just standing out in the park. I have no idea what his deal was, but I don't think he saw me. The cops pulled up across the park and he was gone.
This may have sounded more interesting in my head, but oh well. It was generally pretty unusual.
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So I'm home alone (again) and I needed to take my dog out to pee. I snap on her leash and go outside- pretty routine. Then as I'm leading her out to the grass, I see this guy just standing out in the park. I have no idea what his deal was, but I don't think he saw me. The cops pulled up across the park and he was gone.
This may have sounded more interesting in my head, but oh well. It was generally pretty unusual.
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9.02.2011
Triptocaine
Heavy Rain is some freaky shit when your PS3 is all screwy. It must be too hot or something, it'll just burst into static noise at random, the dad's hair keeps glitching on and off his head, the audio is off synching, and the gameplay is super clunky. Okay so maybe it's more annoying than trippy. I wanna record it but my dog's sleeping in my lap and it's too adorable.
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-Posted from my mobile device.
9.01.2011
Just One Thing
Editing together videos all the time is a hassle, I think I may just wait until I have a lot to show. By a lot, I mean maybe two or three days worth. I don't know. Either way I'm tired now and don't feel like uploading the video tonight.
8.31.2011
Dammit
Because Reuben attends class and works full time I can never catch him at home. I get back after a long day wanting to talk to him and he's still working. I just want things to go back to the way they were.
Nightmares Part 3 and a couple of other things
Okay, don't go looking for parts one and two, there's no way I could have known if I would be doing this in installments.
Guess who's having recurring nightmares again. Picture a world where all the air has been replaced by a clear jell-o. It can be torn and broken apart like jell-o can, in the same texture, but it doesn't jiggle and it's not actually the air. You can still breathe and move normally and all that jazz. Now imagine you're in the middle of some desert- nothing in sight but vast amounts of sand. Suddenly you see this dark outline of a figure walking toward you. He's very lanky and has a sort of a sway when he walks, ripping through the jell-o leaving this cracky texture behind him. Behind him, something rises out of the sand. It's sort of spherical, and looks like it may have rings around it, as if it was made of some sort of impossible architecture. The "rings" begin to spin, ripping through the jell-o so much that it begins to pull everything else in. You can feel the jell-o around you stretch and rip and you're moved closer toward the figure. Suddenly, the sand moves out from below you and you fall into an epic, massive, dark pit. You don't know if you were just saved or swallowed.
That may seem kind of stupid but I've had this the past couple of nights and wouldn't be surprised. I don't know if this was part of the dream or just me, but I also always wake up with "Joy Division - Atmosphere" (just looked it up) stuck in my head. I've heard this song once maybe a year ago.
One more thing, I'd like to thank you guys in the urban exploration forum, you really helped out and I may go back there soon. I'm surprised at how many people actually seem to check my blog on a regular basis, so I would also like to thank my readers. I've also noticed that I have gotten a few views from some paranormal website and that has given me a (much needed) good chuckle. I'm just a dude going through a rough patch. There's nothing super weird about it, but I appreciate your concern.
Guess who's having recurring nightmares again. Picture a world where all the air has been replaced by a clear jell-o. It can be torn and broken apart like jell-o can, in the same texture, but it doesn't jiggle and it's not actually the air. You can still breathe and move normally and all that jazz. Now imagine you're in the middle of some desert- nothing in sight but vast amounts of sand. Suddenly you see this dark outline of a figure walking toward you. He's very lanky and has a sort of a sway when he walks, ripping through the jell-o leaving this cracky texture behind him. Behind him, something rises out of the sand. It's sort of spherical, and looks like it may have rings around it, as if it was made of some sort of impossible architecture. The "rings" begin to spin, ripping through the jell-o so much that it begins to pull everything else in. You can feel the jell-o around you stretch and rip and you're moved closer toward the figure. Suddenly, the sand moves out from below you and you fall into an epic, massive, dark pit. You don't know if you were just saved or swallowed.
That may seem kind of stupid but I've had this the past couple of nights and wouldn't be surprised. I don't know if this was part of the dream or just me, but I also always wake up with "Joy Division - Atmosphere" (just looked it up) stuck in my head. I've heard this song once maybe a year ago.
One more thing, I'd like to thank you guys in the urban exploration forum, you really helped out and I may go back there soon. I'm surprised at how many people actually seem to check my blog on a regular basis, so I would also like to thank my readers. I've also noticed that I have gotten a few views from some paranormal website and that has given me a (much needed) good chuckle. I'm just a dude going through a rough patch. There's nothing super weird about it, but I appreciate your concern.
8.29.2011
You've Got To Be Fucking Kidding Me
Laugh it off? Yeah, I saw Reub's post. I don't mind getting personal on the blog but that is really taking it TOO far. It was bad enough that he kept filming anyway.
8.28.2011
euphigonhgf
I come home to find this in my bathroom. Looks like Reuben ripped out most of the pages with writing on it and hid them from me. You know, a lot of shit has happened in my life lately but the last thing I need is the guy I live with to pull this shit on me. NOT TO MENTION THIS IS LIKE MY FIFTH TIME TRYING TO POST THIS DAMN BLOG.
Just let me sleep.
8.27.2011
The Catastrophic Hymns From Yesterday
Friend of mine took me to a bar tonight to try and take my mind off of things. Alcohol is a depressant and I'm an idiot for taking him up on that offer.
8.26.2011
8.25.2011
Completely Forgot I Had This
Remember that little book Reuben and I found at the bridge? Well, until today, I didn't. I flipped through it earlier and it is FULL of names, dates, scribbles, etc. I'm taking a break from editing last night's events to post this, but maybe after I get all my school shit straightened out tomorrow I can scan these pages and see what you guys think. Back to the lab for now.
8.23.2011
8.21.2011
Still No Word
It's kind of hard to live your life when a good friend of yours may be in trouble. Went Geocaching with Travis and Reub last night to help take my mind off of things, but I feel a little guilty about it. I don't know. I figure it's probably the healthiest thing I can do.
8.20.2011
Let's Get Serious
I was editing videos from yesterday last night for the daily challenges or whatever when I finally get an answer back-- from my friend's roommate. It took me a while to hunt down his number but he told me that my friend has not come back since the night I left. He thought that my friend came home with me because his car is still there. Well it's been another day and still no word from him so, needless to say, I'm beginning to worry. I don't really feel like finishing these videos right now.
8.18.2011
I Wish He'd Answer His Phone
My friend - who wishes to remain nameless - will not give me a progress update on those tapes. I have been asking since the night I got home. So friend, if you are reading this, ANSWER YOUR PHONE. My curiosity is ever-burning.
8.17.2011
8.14.2011
Posting From Mobile; Quick Update
Having a great time on this mini-vacation. I'll be able to return and upload on Tuesday. As for the tapes, it pretty much seems impossible to restore them but he's still trying. I'm cool with it, though, I haven't seen this guy in about four years so it's nice to be able to hang with him again. Good to see he hasn't changed a lot. Party tonight!
8.11.2011
Road Trip
Finals are tomorrow (Sam, I'm going to miss seeing you during the day) but afterward I'll be going to an old friend's place for a few days. He may be able to help me out with these tapes.
8.10.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 12
In December 2009 I hit a rough patch in my life. One of my friends brought me down here to cheer me up. The inside is full of poetry and the like. Obviously, it's not a great spot to "relax" but I think it's special.
As for the camera deal: about three years ago (late 2008ish) I lent my camera to a friend so he could do some group project thing. When he brought it back to me, it was a little dented and scratched. Apparently the camera wasn't locked into the tripod real well so it fell off and tumbled down the paved road. Ever since then I've been having some minor problems with the camera but nothing too bad. I think it's getting worse, though. I may need to check about getting it fixed.
We actually recorded two different places this night but the other one yielded no interesting results PLUS Reuben's camera died. Not to mention it had a lot more spiders.
8.09.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 11
I know I took it literally, but I still think this question was kind of stupid.
30 Day Video Challenge: Days 8, 9, & 10
I'm really wanting to get a haircut but I'm also trying to grow it out. What to do, what to do...
8.08.2011
Excavation
We returned the bridge to scavenge for cool things and ended up pretty satisfied. Words cannot describe how nervous I am around Sam in this video. I really wanted to record more of the stuff we found but I was just happy bringing her along.
Excuses, Excuses
I finished editing the videos for this weekend at about 10:30 last night. I've been uploading them ever since and they're still not done, but hopefully they will be by later this afternoon. I'm also still a little behind on the daily challenges because I didn't have the list with me when I left, but I'm going to try and knock them all out tonight. It's finals week, so I'm afraid I'm going to be busy as hell.
8.06.2011
Back to the Bridge
I've been itching to go back and it's on my way to where I'm headed (to a friend's house) so my friends and I are going to stop by and salvage some junk there. I'll be back tomorrow where, hopefully, I can have time to upload the rest of my videos.
So I Missed Them Again...
Looks like I'm going to end up having to do four to five videos all at once. This may be the busiest weekend I've had in a long, long time - and not just because of the video challenges.
8.05.2011
New Background & Pending Videos
I found this picture out of a sea of backgrounds that were pretty meh. It represents my love for exploration and uh.. it's red like me.
I wasn't able to complete the video "challenge" yesterday because I was too busy with other things. Now on today, my birthday, I plan to knock out this 10-page paper and hope to put up two more videos by the end of the day. Ain't life grand?
I wasn't able to complete the video "challenge" yesterday because I was too busy with other things. Now on today, my birthday, I plan to knock out this 10-page paper and hope to put up two more videos by the end of the day. Ain't life grand?
8.03.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 5
Day 5: What's the earliest childhood memory you can think of?
Every time I watch myself on video I cringe.
8.02.2011
I Found The Lyrics
Here's the actual music video: http://youtu.be/an0VNmQrO0k
This is the song I must have been thinking about this morning. Funny, I haven't heard this song in about six years.
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 4
What was the first thing on your mind this morning? [BESIDES "I have to pee"] Why?
The more I listen to these words, the more familiar they become.
8.01.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 3
Day 3: Learn something new today. Go into detail!
I found it quite difficult to conceal my good mood.
7.31.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 2
Day 2:
Describe a moment when you saw something for the first time and what was going through your mind.
After this video, I realized how badly I need a shave and haircut. Well, one down.
I don't know if I still want to do these videos on my walks. My attention's always divided and I'm pouring sweat in the hundred-degree weather. I guess we'll see.
7.30.2011
30 Day Video Challenge: Day 1
I am finding it extremely difficult to talk to my inanimate camera. I was walking my dog at the time, hence the spinning and jerkiness.
7.29.2011
First Post
Writing for nobody, apparently. I think I'll join in on this blogging craze and give YouTube a second chance as well. I'm a weird-magnet, I should attract some attention, right? Therapist seems to think so.
The Bridge
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