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9.28.2011
9.19.2011
Venting
By now you're tired of hearing about my love life. My new "interest" must have dropped the class because I still see her around campus. I'm done.
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9.15.2011
Inside Looking Out
So far, my week has been an eventful roller coaster.
Sam still won't talk to me. While I hesitate to say that I'm over her, I have experienced an extended level of detachment. However, though I no longer care for her in a romantic sense, I'm still worried. How did she get all the way out there that night without a car? That's a good 20-minute drive. I don't want to call the pigs for several reasons, but her roommate is the most difficult person to get a hold of.
In short, I'm at a loss and don't know what to do. I don't know who was out there that night but I keep thinking 'what if he got my plate number?' or something. I don't think that's too far-fetched, even for someone as paranoid as I am. Right?
On the brighter side of things, therapy is working out pretty well. She won't let me record in her office, though. Reuben has had a girlfriend for about a week now, and I suppose I should applaud him for that. I, on the other hand, prefer the slow route. I don't want to make the same mistakes I did with the last few. My new interest is working out pretty well, but I'm still at a certain point where I'm like 'does she or doesn't see'. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals but maybe I'm over-analyzing. I feel stupid around her lately because I've been congested and had this terrible cough- which is just my luck when I meet someone new, right?
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Sam still won't talk to me. While I hesitate to say that I'm over her, I have experienced an extended level of detachment. However, though I no longer care for her in a romantic sense, I'm still worried. How did she get all the way out there that night without a car? That's a good 20-minute drive. I don't want to call the pigs for several reasons, but her roommate is the most difficult person to get a hold of.
In short, I'm at a loss and don't know what to do. I don't know who was out there that night but I keep thinking 'what if he got my plate number?' or something. I don't think that's too far-fetched, even for someone as paranoid as I am. Right?
On the brighter side of things, therapy is working out pretty well. She won't let me record in her office, though. Reuben has had a girlfriend for about a week now, and I suppose I should applaud him for that. I, on the other hand, prefer the slow route. I don't want to make the same mistakes I did with the last few. My new interest is working out pretty well, but I'm still at a certain point where I'm like 'does she or doesn't see'. I feel like I'm getting mixed signals but maybe I'm over-analyzing. I feel stupid around her lately because I've been congested and had this terrible cough- which is just my luck when I meet someone new, right?
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9.12.2011
9.07.2011
Resolution
Yesterday was finally the day that the schedules of Sir Reuben Woodward and I finally allowed for us to be in the same room at the same time. I turned the camera off for sake of privacy, but we more or less talked things out eventually. The middle of the conversation was interesting, though. Somehow the challenge arose to see who could be the first one to get a date. Morally, I find it appalling. However, I'm not really even going to try because let's face it: Reuben's not exactly a 'lady's man'.
Meanwhile, the smoke continues to get thicker. Afternoons here are very gray and I'm convinced that my newfound cough is a result of the smoke from all these damn fires. This probably wasn't the best year to cut fire dept funding, governor.
EDIT (because I didn't want to post a new blog):
I'm not going to say I met someone today, because that would probably jinx it and just turn out bad all around. I am going to say that today I talked to someone really cool and I feel like I may have gotten a hint or two. Even if not, it's all okay because they are pretty effin awesome. Either way, it's still one more step to getting over Sam.
Meanwhile, the smoke continues to get thicker. Afternoons here are very gray and I'm convinced that my newfound cough is a result of the smoke from all these damn fires. This probably wasn't the best year to cut fire dept funding, governor.
EDIT (because I didn't want to post a new blog):
I'm not going to say I met someone today, because that would probably jinx it and just turn out bad all around. I am going to say that today I talked to someone really cool and I feel like I may have gotten a hint or two. Even if not, it's all okay because they are pretty effin awesome. Either way, it's still one more step to getting over Sam.
9.06.2011
Just Gonna Stand There And Watch Me Burn?
Couple of things. First off, remember the friend I had that went missing? His car was found in a small town a couple of hours away from here. His roommate said his car disappeared from the house sometime over the night a few days ago. Needless to say, this has given me hope and I'm feeling ever-so-slightly chipper at the moment. In other news, raging fires are pretty much surrounding me. I hear fire trucks at least every few hours.
--I just checked the active wildfires map for my state and HOLY SHIT. The fires are closer to me, but my town is almost completely black out by the smoke spread. I wouldn't be surprised if this invariably caused the cold front this morning which lowered the temperature a good 40-50 degrees.
--I just checked the active wildfires map for my state and HOLY SHIT. The fires are closer to me, but my town is almost completely black out by the smoke spread. I wouldn't be surprised if this invariably caused the cold front this morning which lowered the temperature a good 40-50 degrees.
9.03.2011
Where Is My Camera When I Need It?
I was going to vlog this one but my camera's downstairs and I'm lazy. Oh well.
So I'm home alone (again) and I needed to take my dog out to pee. I snap on her leash and go outside- pretty routine. Then as I'm leading her out to the grass, I see this guy just standing out in the park. I have no idea what his deal was, but I don't think he saw me. The cops pulled up across the park and he was gone.
This may have sounded more interesting in my head, but oh well. It was generally pretty unusual.
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So I'm home alone (again) and I needed to take my dog out to pee. I snap on her leash and go outside- pretty routine. Then as I'm leading her out to the grass, I see this guy just standing out in the park. I have no idea what his deal was, but I don't think he saw me. The cops pulled up across the park and he was gone.
This may have sounded more interesting in my head, but oh well. It was generally pretty unusual.
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9.02.2011
Triptocaine
Heavy Rain is some freaky shit when your PS3 is all screwy. It must be too hot or something, it'll just burst into static noise at random, the dad's hair keeps glitching on and off his head, the audio is off synching, and the gameplay is super clunky. Okay so maybe it's more annoying than trippy. I wanna record it but my dog's sleeping in my lap and it's too adorable.
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9.01.2011
Just One Thing
Editing together videos all the time is a hassle, I think I may just wait until I have a lot to show. By a lot, I mean maybe two or three days worth. I don't know. Either way I'm tired now and don't feel like uploading the video tonight.
8.31.2011
Dammit
Because Reuben attends class and works full time I can never catch him at home. I get back after a long day wanting to talk to him and he's still working. I just want things to go back to the way they were.
Nightmares Part 3 and a couple of other things
Okay, don't go looking for parts one and two, there's no way I could have known if I would be doing this in installments.
Guess who's having recurring nightmares again. Picture a world where all the air has been replaced by a clear jell-o. It can be torn and broken apart like jell-o can, in the same texture, but it doesn't jiggle and it's not actually the air. You can still breathe and move normally and all that jazz. Now imagine you're in the middle of some desert- nothing in sight but vast amounts of sand. Suddenly you see this dark outline of a figure walking toward you. He's very lanky and has a sort of a sway when he walks, ripping through the jell-o leaving this cracky texture behind him. Behind him, something rises out of the sand. It's sort of spherical, and looks like it may have rings around it, as if it was made of some sort of impossible architecture. The "rings" begin to spin, ripping through the jell-o so much that it begins to pull everything else in. You can feel the jell-o around you stretch and rip and you're moved closer toward the figure. Suddenly, the sand moves out from below you and you fall into an epic, massive, dark pit. You don't know if you were just saved or swallowed.
That may seem kind of stupid but I've had this the past couple of nights and wouldn't be surprised. I don't know if this was part of the dream or just me, but I also always wake up with "Joy Division - Atmosphere" (just looked it up) stuck in my head. I've heard this song once maybe a year ago.
One more thing, I'd like to thank you guys in the urban exploration forum, you really helped out and I may go back there soon. I'm surprised at how many people actually seem to check my blog on a regular basis, so I would also like to thank my readers. I've also noticed that I have gotten a few views from some paranormal website and that has given me a (much needed) good chuckle. I'm just a dude going through a rough patch. There's nothing super weird about it, but I appreciate your concern.
Guess who's having recurring nightmares again. Picture a world where all the air has been replaced by a clear jell-o. It can be torn and broken apart like jell-o can, in the same texture, but it doesn't jiggle and it's not actually the air. You can still breathe and move normally and all that jazz. Now imagine you're in the middle of some desert- nothing in sight but vast amounts of sand. Suddenly you see this dark outline of a figure walking toward you. He's very lanky and has a sort of a sway when he walks, ripping through the jell-o leaving this cracky texture behind him. Behind him, something rises out of the sand. It's sort of spherical, and looks like it may have rings around it, as if it was made of some sort of impossible architecture. The "rings" begin to spin, ripping through the jell-o so much that it begins to pull everything else in. You can feel the jell-o around you stretch and rip and you're moved closer toward the figure. Suddenly, the sand moves out from below you and you fall into an epic, massive, dark pit. You don't know if you were just saved or swallowed.
That may seem kind of stupid but I've had this the past couple of nights and wouldn't be surprised. I don't know if this was part of the dream or just me, but I also always wake up with "Joy Division - Atmosphere" (just looked it up) stuck in my head. I've heard this song once maybe a year ago.
One more thing, I'd like to thank you guys in the urban exploration forum, you really helped out and I may go back there soon. I'm surprised at how many people actually seem to check my blog on a regular basis, so I would also like to thank my readers. I've also noticed that I have gotten a few views from some paranormal website and that has given me a (much needed) good chuckle. I'm just a dude going through a rough patch. There's nothing super weird about it, but I appreciate your concern.
8.29.2011
You've Got To Be Fucking Kidding Me
Laugh it off? Yeah, I saw Reub's post. I don't mind getting personal on the blog but that is really taking it TOO far. It was bad enough that he kept filming anyway.
8.28.2011
euphigonhgf
I come home to find this in my bathroom. Looks like Reuben ripped out most of the pages with writing on it and hid them from me. You know, a lot of shit has happened in my life lately but the last thing I need is the guy I live with to pull this shit on me. NOT TO MENTION THIS IS LIKE MY FIFTH TIME TRYING TO POST THIS DAMN BLOG.
Just let me sleep.
8.27.2011
The Catastrophic Hymns From Yesterday
Friend of mine took me to a bar tonight to try and take my mind off of things. Alcohol is a depressant and I'm an idiot for taking him up on that offer.
8.26.2011
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